A quick dive down the Pinterest black hole has enlightened me. Wait what did I read? Yep- I have brain fog. Weight gain. Feelings of overwhelm. That is definitely me.
This menopause thing doesn’t seem skippable or avoidable. To quote a children’s book We’re Going on A Bear Hunt- “Can’t go over it. Can’t go under it. Gotta go through it.”
Why haven’t I researched menopause earlier? I’m not sure. I love to look things up. I guess I didn’t want to know. Or maybe I thought I would naturally know. Or I do like in the way back recesses of my mind to think I could still have one more baby. I know that is crazy. I know I have 6 children. I like the idea that I could have one more. If my recollection serves me right, a man would be required. Well, I would have one more if I found the baby on my doorstep.
Look at that list. That in itself is overwhelming. Awful. This image and list of symptoms came from an exhaustive article on a blog called midlife rambler- exploring the best of life after the kids are grown. The post is titled Your Complete Guide to the Symptoms of Perimenopause and Menopause. It is too much for me to read thoroughly tonight but I’m pinning it so I can come back to when my boobs feel saggier or my complexion gets rougher or my hair thins or some other totally obnoxious result of growing older. (I know better than being dead.)
To deal with life, I am taking an anti-depressant and since that isn’t always fixing my mood- I got Addy to cut some bangs. The bangs idea came from my love of Jess on New Girl (Zooey Deschanel), Stef a contestant on The British Baking Show and my hero Ina Garten, The Barefoot Contessa.
The only other idea I have for escaping “the feeling of overwhelm” that I now realize is attributed to my lack of estrogen, is to get a pedicure that has CBD oil. My friends and I have been wanting to try one and I think I finally am going to get around to it. Did you read that S and C?
Imagine if I could watch The British Baking Show while getting my CBD oil pedicure. That would be awesome.